[Snatches the burden right out of Matsui's hands and runs away.]
Thank you.
[It doesn't bother him that the prayer is Catholic or anything. It's the thought that counts. Even if the thought may only be a little bit genuine. He can't say.]
I know you dislike Mr. Rang, [he can tell] but please take care of him. I think he hides the fact he has a good, but hurt heart. You may be offended by my saying so, but I believe he's a lot like you two.
He thinks he's beheld by his nature, not understanding he has a body which is more nuanced than that. A body with a heart and feelings he can't shut out.
[THAT'S HIS BURDEN NOW NO ONE CAN TAKE THIS FROM HIM
He doesn't think it's a matter worth thanks, though, but he won't verbalize that aloud. They're all already LIVING ON THE EDGE they don't need a last push.
Also this is so funny. Valid, though. He may bristle a little at the comparison, but it's not like he hasn't seen the similarities. Especially between Rang and himself, unfortunately.]
...I can't make any promises, but I will try.
[Because he DOESN'T LIKE RANG!! But it's not like he's actively after the guy. He will, however, absolutely murder him the second he crosses the wrong line.]
--Did you already know? When we spoke earlier this week.
Matsui getting mad when it's just himself as the dog looking into the mirror. IT'S SO FUNNY. This team is a fucking disaster hellscape. Goodbye to Rang, joining D's fate because SOME PEOPLE have to be human sympathizers. Damn why couldn't Ryo, Knives, or GETO (looks at spoon) be in this game.]
ALSO YEAH THAT'S LITERALLY HIM. THIS TEAM IS SO STUPID. Get Rang over here tape that man to life. Or just watch the whole team launch itself into the abyss, that'd also be hilarious.
He's going to look in the sound of D's voice at that, though. He still can't SEE but it's fine, he doesn't need to see D's eyes dead-on to convey the emotion behind his stare, which is very much dead inside.]
[The way it really was because the swords would have done a murder if he'd gotten away. Fuckin wild. Matsui goes quiet for a little while after that, closing his eyes even though he can't see anyway just because it somehow feels more soothing.
His hands, clasped tightly, loosen for a second before he begins to twist his fingers together.
He was poisoned and drowned. [That's the simplest explanation.] He would not come out, so I went to him instead. He was at his warehouse. We talked for a moment, and then he ran away, so I followed him.
He tried to swim across the lake in the park. I already knew this had to end one way or another. It had gone on long enough. As much of a monster as others think of me, I don't believe in prolonged, unnecessary suffering.
So I poisoned the water since that's the least brutal thing I could do.
Anyway this both 1) clears up Matsui's confusion about whether or not his psych was borrowed and 2) gives him one less reason to be violently triggered by this entire event. Y...yay!]
...Then, the marks...? Did he nearly make it back out...?
I see... [But this does give him further reason to relax, since Netzach had been like WAS I INTENTIONALLY FRAMED and Matsui was like ......WERE YOU????? Funny that he is taking D at his word, but he figures if the mans is out here not lying about Rin crying and fleeing, he probably wouldn't lie about much else.]
Do you know why only Netzach was affected by the lake water on Rin's corpse...?
[Can't believe Matsui is getting all the fears assuaged. IMAGINE IF THIS HAD BEEN SOMEONE MORE LIKE TSURU WHO WAS RUDE ABOUT IT. But no, even if D doesn't LIKE humans, he can not be an asshole on the outside.]
I don't know. I had assumed Haru and some of the others would begin to get sick later, but they didn't. The poison wore off, I guess.
[FUCKING TSURUMARU KUNINAGAAAAAA THIS IS SO FUNNY NOT MATSUI'S UNHOLY FURY BEING BROUGHT DOWN TO NORMAL LEVELS.
He closes his eyes after another second or two and just. Sighs. There's still a lot to be upset about, but frankly, this is much less egregious than what it had started to look like in trial.]
...I still can't abide by your choice, even though I understand that you had reasons for it. But if this is the truth...
[It's not up to him to offer forgiveness, of course. That's for Rin, if he can, wherever he may be. But for him, at least, it eases his heart if only slightly.]
But yeah, that's true. Especially since this is a group of BLEEDING HEARTS... His head bows a little.]
...Yes. There is no path forward without hurt.
[Because of D mentioning the call he got, he'd been turning scenarios over in his head. No matter who is called on or what they decide to do, whether they decide to kill or forfeit, whether someone else has to take their place, if they stand in trial and attempt to give themselves away or try to pass the burden of erasure to another team... all of it is horrible.]
So I recognize that it is my personal feelings that make it difficult for me to be merciful toward you, even knowing that no choice would have been a "good" choice.
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Thank you.
[It doesn't bother him that the prayer is Catholic or anything. It's the thought that counts. Even if the thought may only be a little bit genuine. He can't say.]
I know you dislike Mr. Rang, [he can tell] but please take care of him. I think he hides the fact he has a good, but hurt heart. You may be offended by my saying so, but I believe he's a lot like you two.
He thinks he's beheld by his nature, not understanding he has a body which is more nuanced than that. A body with a heart and feelings he can't shut out.
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He doesn't think it's a matter worth thanks, though, but he won't verbalize that aloud. They're all already LIVING ON THE EDGE they don't need a last push.
Also this is so funny. Valid, though. He may bristle a little at the comparison, but it's not like he hasn't seen the similarities. Especially between Rang and himself, unfortunately.]
...I can't make any promises, but I will try.
[Because he DOESN'T LIKE RANG!! But it's not like he's actively after the guy. He will, however, absolutely murder him the second he crosses the wrong line.]
--Did you already know? When we spoke earlier this week.
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Matsui getting mad when it's just himself as the dog looking into the mirror. IT'S SO FUNNY. This team is a fucking disaster hellscape. Goodbye to Rang, joining D's fate because SOME PEOPLE have to be human sympathizers. Damn why couldn't Ryo, Knives, or GETO (looks at spoon) be in this game.]
Yes, I knew.
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ALSO YEAH THAT'S LITERALLY HIM. THIS TEAM IS SO STUPID. Get Rang over here tape that man to life. Or just watch the whole team launch itself into the abyss, that'd also be hilarious.
He's going to look in the sound of D's voice at that, though. He still can't SEE but it's fine, he doesn't need to see D's eyes dead-on to convey the emotion behind his stare, which is very much dead inside.]
You intentionally left yourself out.
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Yes. Because I knew this is the fate that awaited me one way or another.
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His hands, clasped tightly, loosen for a second before he begins to twist his fingers together.
After those long seconds pass:]
How did he die?
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He was poisoned and drowned. [That's the simplest explanation.] He would not come out, so I went to him instead. He was at his warehouse. We talked for a moment, and then he ran away, so I followed him.
He tried to swim across the lake in the park. I already knew this had to end one way or another. It had gone on long enough. As much of a monster as others think of me, I don't believe in prolonged, unnecessary suffering.
So I poisoned the water since that's the least brutal thing I could do.
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Anyway this both 1) clears up Matsui's confusion about whether or not his psych was borrowed and 2) gives him one less reason to be violently triggered by this entire event. Y...yay!]
...Then, the marks...? Did he nearly make it back out...?
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NOT MATSUI HAVING A MELTDOWN THINKING D USED HYDRO TO KILL A MINOR. This is so funny. Should have let Matsui live with another's sin...]
Yes. He almost climbed out the other side, but died before he could.
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HE REALLY DID THOUGH HE REALLY GOT SO FUCKING MAD ABOUT IT. A CRIME THAT D ACTUALLY DIDN'T DESERVE TO TAKE THE BLAME FOR.
This is still really fuckin sad but at least it hits way differently than "D stole his psych to drag a young civilian to their watery grave".]
...I see. [RIP sweet Rin.] And the illness?
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Can't believe Matsui had the trauma taken away tch.]
I don't know. He cursed me that night, so I thought it was only me. But I guess he cursed all of us so people would know where to look.
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It's fine though he had more than enough trauma even without this.]
Ah... I meant the nausea.
[He fckin assumed the curse was D's fault.]
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Both of his brows lift slightly, then lower pensively.]
The lake was poisoned. The people who went in between Friday and Saturday were poisoned slightly, and they touched other people, so the poison spread.
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I see... [But this does give him further reason to relax, since Netzach had been like WAS I INTENTIONALLY FRAMED and Matsui was like ......WERE YOU????? Funny that he is taking D at his word, but he figures if the mans is out here not lying about Rin crying and fleeing, he probably wouldn't lie about much else.]
Do you know why only Netzach was affected by the lake water on Rin's corpse...?
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I don't know. I had assumed Haru and some of the others would begin to get sick later, but they didn't. The poison wore off, I guess.
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He closes his eyes after another second or two and just. Sighs. There's still a lot to be upset about, but frankly, this is much less egregious than what it had started to look like in trial.]
...I still can't abide by your choice, even though I understand that you had reasons for it. But if this is the truth...
[It's not up to him to offer forgiveness, of course. That's for Rin, if he can, wherever he may be. But for him, at least, it eases his heart if only slightly.]
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It's the truth.
[That's all he says, though. He doesn't make any attempt to plead or beg with Matsui to believe him, or to emphasize again what all he's said.]
No matter who I would have erased, someone would have been angry.
[The only person he can think of is maybe Rang, but even then, there are people who like Rang.]
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But yeah, that's true. Especially since this is a group of BLEEDING HEARTS... His head bows a little.]
...Yes. There is no path forward without hurt.
[Because of D mentioning the call he got, he'd been turning scenarios over in his head. No matter who is called on or what they decide to do, whether they decide to kill or forfeit, whether someone else has to take their place, if they stand in trial and attempt to give themselves away or try to pass the burden of erasure to another team... all of it is horrible.]
So I recognize that it is my personal feelings that make it difficult for me to be merciful toward you, even knowing that no choice would have been a "good" choice.