Anyway this both 1) clears up Matsui's confusion about whether or not his psych was borrowed and 2) gives him one less reason to be violently triggered by this entire event. Y...yay!]
...Then, the marks...? Did he nearly make it back out...?
I see... [But this does give him further reason to relax, since Netzach had been like WAS I INTENTIONALLY FRAMED and Matsui was like ......WERE YOU????? Funny that he is taking D at his word, but he figures if the mans is out here not lying about Rin crying and fleeing, he probably wouldn't lie about much else.]
Do you know why only Netzach was affected by the lake water on Rin's corpse...?
[Can't believe Matsui is getting all the fears assuaged. IMAGINE IF THIS HAD BEEN SOMEONE MORE LIKE TSURU WHO WAS RUDE ABOUT IT. But no, even if D doesn't LIKE humans, he can not be an asshole on the outside.]
I don't know. I had assumed Haru and some of the others would begin to get sick later, but they didn't. The poison wore off, I guess.
[FUCKING TSURUMARU KUNINAGAAAAAA THIS IS SO FUNNY NOT MATSUI'S UNHOLY FURY BEING BROUGHT DOWN TO NORMAL LEVELS.
He closes his eyes after another second or two and just. Sighs. There's still a lot to be upset about, but frankly, this is much less egregious than what it had started to look like in trial.]
...I still can't abide by your choice, even though I understand that you had reasons for it. But if this is the truth...
[It's not up to him to offer forgiveness, of course. That's for Rin, if he can, wherever he may be. But for him, at least, it eases his heart if only slightly.]
But yeah, that's true. Especially since this is a group of BLEEDING HEARTS... His head bows a little.]
...Yes. There is no path forward without hurt.
[Because of D mentioning the call he got, he'd been turning scenarios over in his head. No matter who is called on or what they decide to do, whether they decide to kill or forfeit, whether someone else has to take their place, if they stand in trial and attempt to give themselves away or try to pass the burden of erasure to another team... all of it is horrible.]
So I recognize that it is my personal feelings that make it difficult for me to be merciful toward you, even knowing that no choice would have been a "good" choice.
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Anyway this both 1) clears up Matsui's confusion about whether or not his psych was borrowed and 2) gives him one less reason to be violently triggered by this entire event. Y...yay!]
...Then, the marks...? Did he nearly make it back out...?
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NOT MATSUI HAVING A MELTDOWN THINKING D USED HYDRO TO KILL A MINOR. This is so funny. Should have let Matsui live with another's sin...]
Yes. He almost climbed out the other side, but died before he could.
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HE REALLY DID THOUGH HE REALLY GOT SO FUCKING MAD ABOUT IT. A CRIME THAT D ACTUALLY DIDN'T DESERVE TO TAKE THE BLAME FOR.
This is still really fuckin sad but at least it hits way differently than "D stole his psych to drag a young civilian to their watery grave".]
...I see. [RIP sweet Rin.] And the illness?
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Can't believe Matsui had the trauma taken away tch.]
I don't know. He cursed me that night, so I thought it was only me. But I guess he cursed all of us so people would know where to look.
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It's fine though he had more than enough trauma even without this.]
Ah... I meant the nausea.
[He fckin assumed the curse was D's fault.]
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Both of his brows lift slightly, then lower pensively.]
The lake was poisoned. The people who went in between Friday and Saturday were poisoned slightly, and they touched other people, so the poison spread.
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I see... [But this does give him further reason to relax, since Netzach had been like WAS I INTENTIONALLY FRAMED and Matsui was like ......WERE YOU????? Funny that he is taking D at his word, but he figures if the mans is out here not lying about Rin crying and fleeing, he probably wouldn't lie about much else.]
Do you know why only Netzach was affected by the lake water on Rin's corpse...?
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I don't know. I had assumed Haru and some of the others would begin to get sick later, but they didn't. The poison wore off, I guess.
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He closes his eyes after another second or two and just. Sighs. There's still a lot to be upset about, but frankly, this is much less egregious than what it had started to look like in trial.]
...I still can't abide by your choice, even though I understand that you had reasons for it. But if this is the truth...
[It's not up to him to offer forgiveness, of course. That's for Rin, if he can, wherever he may be. But for him, at least, it eases his heart if only slightly.]
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It's the truth.
[That's all he says, though. He doesn't make any attempt to plead or beg with Matsui to believe him, or to emphasize again what all he's said.]
No matter who I would have erased, someone would have been angry.
[The only person he can think of is maybe Rang, but even then, there are people who like Rang.]
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But yeah, that's true. Especially since this is a group of BLEEDING HEARTS... His head bows a little.]
...Yes. There is no path forward without hurt.
[Because of D mentioning the call he got, he'd been turning scenarios over in his head. No matter who is called on or what they decide to do, whether they decide to kill or forfeit, whether someone else has to take their place, if they stand in trial and attempt to give themselves away or try to pass the burden of erasure to another team... all of it is horrible.]
So I recognize that it is my personal feelings that make it difficult for me to be merciful toward you, even knowing that no choice would have been a "good" choice.