[The air coming from him is demurely offended! Like a willowy, Victorian maiden. His shoulders hunch, but he doesn't fight Rin off. What is he... a savage???]
You know we can't do that. Don't forget what Nightingale told you. Doing so could put everyone there in jeopardy, including your own team.
[Rin is fucking killing him which is ironic. He puts a hand on Rin's chest like he's trying to physically bar him from being a good boy for no reason. STOP BEING DUMB.]
Why does it matter so much to you? If we aren't able to help Nightingale figure out how to fix this game, then only one team can win anyway. If your team doesn't win, they won't get to go back. There's no point in you trying to keep my team from being erased.
[ D is a helpless maiden so his hand does not do much to push Rin back.
He looks a little angry when D asks the question, giving him an incredulous look. ]
We don't know what's going to happen. Look around us! Everything's... insane. Maybe we can all get out, and maybe we can't, but why wouldn't I want your team to have the best shot of getting out of here possible?
[Maybe if you weren’t a stupid JOCK. Actually, he knows martial arts, so he could still beat Rin up.
He rebuffs the feelings back with his incredulity.]
Because two of us despise humans? Because I killed you without hesitation? Buzen and Matsui are swords—even if they are noble now, they’ve ultimately cut down human life because they are weapons made by man.
So why do you want us to have an opportunity to get out of here?
[ Now he's fully angry, and he shoves D back a little, finally letting go of him and face red from how frustrated he is. ]
Because I'm seventeen and I don't want to see the people around me die? Why is that so hard to believe? Why the hell wouldn't I want you to get out of here?
[ He's just like, how can one person be SO WRONG!! ]
People can do shitty things in shitty circumstances. Maybe if I spent 600 years with a psychotic older brother watching humanity at its worst, and then I was thrown into a killing game, I'd be a human-hating murder too! I'm not- I'm not going to decide who deserves help and who doesn't based on that.
[ this is so funny considering that rin's future au job is a cop
He blinks at the gesture, still tense and waiting for a fight despite the shift in emotions he's getting from D. ]
... Who wouldn't be hurt by that? [ It sounds very upsetting!! ] That guy shot your father, right? Is this another way of you telling me that you hate me?
[Rin as AU Leon. Except Leon has a little bro not a sis.]
No.
[Here, things start feeling… muddled. There is a hesitant affection which keeps getting rolled over by waves of objectiveness. A self-imposed restriction which ultimately ends in frustration, then… resignation.]
The detective is human and did what had to be done to keep my father from killing every human.
[ Rin watches him carefully, anger and fight instincts subsiding as he tries to picture a life like this: a father that's a distant stranger, killed and brought back as a son.
He doesn't miss the blip of affection. ]
... Seems like you could have a friend to go back to, if you really wanted.
[ Rin just like, (historian voice) they appeared to be good friends. ]
None of this is making me not want you to get out of here.
You continue to sound just like him. I’m wondering if maybe you are his little brother rather than Chris.
[He’s amused, and then it fades into the same resignation from before.
He shakes his head.]
The detective and I are even now. He would have died from the wounds my father’s trial inflicted on him, but I saved him. And then I left. Chris had found his voice, so he didn’t belong in the pet shop any longer.
And the detective knew too much about me. I took the pet shop and began looking for another Chinatown to inhabit. It’s better for them this way. I have a duty, and they have normal lives. Like you.
It’s better for you if you didn’t worry about us, though I’m not against helping try to save everyone.
[ Rin has to look at him for a moment and wonder if D kept a child in his pet shop? Hello?
He looks a little skeptical, still annoyed by everything that he's hearing, even if he should probably be sympathetic. ]
You probably have no idea how much I've changed in the past two weeks.
[ since you didn't pc me
He looks up at the screens. ]
I don't get why you're so insistent on being alone, but I'm willing to bet that you'll change too. [ And then, annoyed again as he scowls at D. ] And quit trying to tell me what's good for me.
... Maybe. [ He looks a little self-conscious at that, but no less serious. ] I've always been running away, and I died without ever accomplishing anything, both here and on Earth. And even now sometimes I feel like... Why don't I just give up? I've never been able to do anything anyway.
[ ... He scoffs. ]
But your resignation is too annoying. I can't lecture you if I give up too. [ He still seems kind of sad about it, but when he looks at the screens again there's a certain longing. ] Besides, they're suffering a lot more than I am, and they're not giving up. It makes me want to try.
[He's mostly indifferent in that very objective way again, but there is still a small twinge of disappointment in hearing this. Would you STOP with the fucking self-deprecation?! HE IS NOT THE MAN FOR THIS.
HIS REVENGE! HIS HATE!]
I'm aware you'll never listen to me if I try convincing you of anything you've done, so how about we simply move forward and see what you can truly do.
[He is back to being a gremlin and teasing. He follows the glance to the screens.]
As bad as it seems, the more of them that reach us, the more help we'll have in finding out what is going on with this strange game.
[Stupid raspberry. He searches Rin’s face watchfully. Will he start crying? Will he get mad and throw a fit.]
Have you been sleeping at all? I can see that if I don’t take care of you, no one will.
[UGH. This really is Great Value Leon!!! His mood is exasperated, but kinda mother hen-ing.]
Tomorrow will be a long day for them. Even just watching will be enough support they would appreciate. You gave Haru flowers, and attempted to send them words of encouragement.
This all is momentary pain endured to reach the end. I’m sure you understand that as someone who told me it was worth it to reach his goal, right? What you’re doing is good enough. It’s enough.
He pats Rin's cheek. Patpat! He deals with animals, you fuck. He can tell that you like the physical affection. WAIT EMOSHARE NOOOO. Anyway, Rin can tell that he is a lil smug and teasing.]
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
We'll... send him a message then. We'll tell him that Buzen's not gone.
no subject
You know we can't do that. Don't forget what Nightingale told you. Doing so could put everyone there in jeopardy, including your own team.
no subject
Then... what are we supposed to do? [ Rin, why are you so upset. This isn't even about you. ] We can't let your team wipe out.
[ ... ]
We could look for a way to send one of you back? From this side?
no subject
Why does it matter so much to you? If we aren't able to help Nightingale figure out how to fix this game, then only one team can win anyway. If your team doesn't win, they won't get to go back. There's no point in you trying to keep my team from being erased.
no subject
He looks a little angry when D asks the question, giving him an incredulous look. ]
We don't know what's going to happen. Look around us! Everything's... insane. Maybe we can all get out, and maybe we can't, but why wouldn't I want your team to have the best shot of getting out of here possible?
no subject
He rebuffs the feelings back with his incredulity.]
Because two of us despise humans? Because I killed you without hesitation? Buzen and Matsui are swords—even if they are noble now, they’ve ultimately cut down human life because they are weapons made by man.
So why do you want us to have an opportunity to get out of here?
no subject
Because I'm seventeen and I don't want to see the people around me die? Why is that so hard to believe? Why the hell wouldn't I want you to get out of here?
[ He's just like, how can one person be SO WRONG!! ]
People can do shitty things in shitty circumstances. Maybe if I spent 600 years with a psychotic older brother watching humanity at its worst, and then I was thrown into a killing game, I'd be a human-hating murder too! I'm not- I'm not going to decide who deserves help and who doesn't based on that.
no subject
He staggers a bit in surprise, a drop of hurt and guilt following. For a moment, he just frowns stubbornly at Rin while his feelings swim uncertainly.
Then they soften into something bittersweet and nostalgic. He reaches up to push the tangled red fringe out of the way with the back of his fingers.]
You remind me of the detective. He had to shoot his childhood friend once because the man had become a criminal. It really hurt him to do so.
no subject
He blinks at the gesture, still tense and waiting for a fight despite the shift in emotions he's getting from D. ]
... Who wouldn't be hurt by that? [ It sounds very upsetting!! ] That guy shot your father, right? Is this another way of you telling me that you hate me?
no subject
No.
[Here, things start feeling… muddled. There is a hesitant affection which keeps getting rolled over by waves of objectiveness. A self-imposed restriction which ultimately ends in frustration, then… resignation.]
The detective is human and did what had to be done to keep my father from killing every human.
[The resentment for some reason doesn’t come.]
no subject
He doesn't miss the blip of affection. ]
... Seems like you could have a friend to go back to, if you really wanted.
[ Rin just like, (historian voice) they appeared to be good friends. ]
None of this is making me not want you to get out of here.
no subject
[He’s amused, and then it fades into the same resignation from before.
He shakes his head.]
The detective and I are even now. He would have died from the wounds my father’s trial inflicted on him, but I saved him. And then I left. Chris had found his voice, so he didn’t belong in the pet shop any longer.
And the detective knew too much about me. I took the pet shop and began looking for another Chinatown to inhabit. It’s better for them this way. I have a duty, and they have normal lives. Like you.
It’s better for you if you didn’t worry about us, though I’m not against helping try to save everyone.
no subject
He looks a little skeptical, still annoyed by everything that he's hearing, even if he should probably be sympathetic. ]
You probably have no idea how much I've changed in the past two weeks.
[ since you didn't pc me
He looks up at the screens. ]
I don't get why you're so insistent on being alone, but I'm willing to bet that you'll change too. [ And then, annoyed again as he scowls at D. ] And quit trying to tell me what's good for me.
no subject
Just like the detective tch thinking he was doing criminal activities like keeping a child in his shop…]
Oh. I can imagine. Humans change very quickly when they experience terrible things.
[Rin is scowling, but D is teasingly amused despite either threat. This is the most like Leon he has ever been consistently.]
Finally rallying against your fate?
no subject
... Maybe. [ He looks a little self-conscious at that, but no less serious. ] I've always been running away, and I died without ever accomplishing anything, both here and on Earth. And even now sometimes I feel like... Why don't I just give up? I've never been able to do anything anyway.
[ ... He scoffs. ]
But your resignation is too annoying. I can't lecture you if I give up too. [ He still seems kind of sad about it, but when he looks at the screens again there's a certain longing. ] Besides, they're suffering a lot more than I am, and they're not giving up. It makes me want to try.
no subject
HIS REVENGE! HIS HATE!]
I'm aware you'll never listen to me if I try convincing you of anything you've done, so how about we simply move forward and see what you can truly do.
[He is back to being a gremlin and teasing. He follows the glance to the screens.]
As bad as it seems, the more of them that reach us, the more help we'll have in finding out what is going on with this strange game.
no subject
Rin just groans and drops into a crouch, covering his face with his hands. He's exhausted from the heaviness of the conversation. ]
That's really terrible... But you're right. We could use help.
no subject
He reaches down and snags Rin by the upper arm to force him to stand again.]
Really. You’re so dramatic.
Everything will work out the way it should. Meet your challenges head on. Buzen will be glad to see you again.
Don’t tell me this is how you went to every swimming competition, squatted down and near tears.
no subject
[ And for once, he's being honest. He only seems tired and frustrated. ]
This is a lot to process, okay? I already said I'm not giving up.
[ He doesn't pull away, and D will feel a longing because Rin is really craving the physicality of being able to lean on or embrace someone.
BUT ONLY D IS HERE. ]
no subject
[Stupid raspberry. He searches Rin’s face watchfully. Will he start crying? Will he get mad and throw a fit.]
Have you been sleeping at all? I can see that if I don’t take care of you, no one will.
[UGH. This really is Great Value Leon!!! His mood is exasperated, but kinda mother hen-ing.]
Tomorrow will be a long day for them. Even just watching will be enough support they would appreciate. You gave Haru flowers, and attempted to send them words of encouragement.
This all is momentary pain endured to reach the end. I’m sure you understand that as someone who told me it was worth it to reach his goal, right? What you’re doing is good enough. It’s enough.
no subject
It makes him flounder a little, especially when D says that what he's doing is enough, the words hitting especially hard. ]
Okay!! I'm motivated! You don't need to say all that!
[ Again, he closes his eyes, not wanting D to see the effect of his words on him. ]
I hear you.
no subject
Rin won’t look at him, so he reaches out and puts both palms on the sides of Rin’s face. Holding the baby face…!]
Good. Once Buzen arrives… and whoever else, let’s figure out what we can do to help Nightingale.
no subject
I know that! [ ... ] We'll figure it out.
[ anyway just stands there letting d hold his face... whatever he doesn't miss physical affection or anything ]
no subject
He pats Rin's cheek. Patpat! He deals with animals, you fuck. He can tell that you like the physical affection. WAIT EMOSHARE NOOOO. Anyway, Rin can tell that he is a lil smug and teasing.]
There you go.
no subject
He just tchs, but unfortunately D will notice an underlying gratitude and affection coming from him.
He looks away. ]
... Let's get something to eat. I'm starving.
(no subject)
(no subject)