Matsui is sitting in front of a randomass hotel room door genuinely, so if D is looking in the hotel he will PROBABLY FIND HIM??? MAYBE... Maybe not this is also on a different floor from where most people are staying damn DOES HE NEED TO TEXT.]
[HELP. Well as soon as he gets close he'll catch a blip of Matsui's thoughts which are currently very much ALL VIOLENCE. Truly man's out here thinking about cuisinarting whoever or whatever put Buzen on this mission.
He looks up, though, taking a second to reorient himself in the present and remind himself that there isn't any blood here.]
--No... No, thank you. [D YOUR PJ GOWN. He probably at least saw the invitation though so he figures D is on his way and that's why he looks like a ghost from the Muppets Christmas Carol.] ...I don't know that we'll be joining, but...
Matsui doesn't flinch or draw back from the touch, at least. The offer, too, is something he appreciates - but he shakes his head after a second.]
I don't... know that prayer will help.
[What he wants to do is draw blood, to slash and spill and paint the walls and floor and himself in that beautiful, terrible red. He has to try being NORMAL THOUGH, or at least try holding it together enough for Buzen, who's also only barely holding it together.]
Heavenly Father, watch over us here on this side. Bless us with the perseverance to continue forward against all odds no matter what will happen as we move forward.
Sooth our turbulent blood, and keep Mr. Matsui’s calm and refreshed. Please keep Mr. Buzen’s inside his body where it belongs… and also, of course, repair his spirit so he may raise his sword in Your honor, not with violence, but with prosperity and forgiveness.
We know Your everlasting love will be with us even during the times You are most quiet. You will fill us with that same peace so we understand.
[This is actually so sweet what the hell. Matsui's a little struck by the care here, even though he knows D is far from religious, even traumatically.
It does help, a little. Maybe not the prayer itself so much as who is saying it and what he is saying and why. But it does help. Matsui is quiet for a few long seconds after the last amen, hands still within D's and eyes still closed.
Then, he takes a deep breath and he opens them again, looking to D's face.]
...Thank you. It means much to me.
[That D would pray for him, and for Buzen, and hope for such goodness for them when they're such flawed things. Created by humans to slay humans.]
You’re welcome. I’m glad. I may not be a Christian, but I think putting faith in God during the times you feel he has abandoned you are more important than any other.
[Hehe. Strangely, the act of praying is rather comforting??? Like chanting a mantra, or counting mala beads.
Matsui’s hands get another gentle squeeze, and then he reaches one of his own out to reassuringly brush Matsui’s cheek.]
If you and Buzen are feeling a little better later, you should join us. We would enjoy having you there.
[IT REALLY IS SOOTHING... Matsui isn't even a real Catholic he's just a fake lyinass Catholic but he genuinely does feel a little less uhhh about to fly off the handle and stab the nearest thing that moves wrong in his vicinity.
The touch is also grounding, and in a way similar to Buzen, he leans into it a little. Not overly-much. Just enough to convey his comfort and appreciation.]
...Mm. [Perhaps there is something to it... Prayer! Wild!] --If Buzen wishes to go, I will accompany him.
[AND BUZEN DOES BECAUSE HE'S A FUCKIN STEPFORD SMILER.]
[Sweet Matsui!! He lowers his hand and pats Matsui's, and then he carefully stands up like a haunting Christmas Carol ghost except I for some reason forgot to send him to the curfew like this. It's fine.]
Good. Please take care of yourself. I'm going to go make sure Rang isn't acting like a fool.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
Matsui is sitting in front of a randomass hotel room door genuinely, so if D is looking in the hotel he will PROBABLY FIND HIM??? MAYBE... Maybe not this is also on a different floor from where most people are staying damn DOES HE NEED TO TEXT.]
no subject
He is in this fucking Victorian-ass pajama gown. He stops by Matsui then squats down by him.]
Do you need anything, Matsui?
no subject
He looks up, though, taking a second to reorient himself in the present and remind himself that there isn't any blood here.]
--No... No, thank you. [D YOUR PJ GOWN. He probably at least saw the invitation though so he figures D is on his way and that's why he looks like a ghost from the Muppets Christmas Carol.] ...I don't know that we'll be joining, but...
[His best wishes to the partygoers amen.]
no subject
D’s smile is weak. HE GETS IT. The thoughts too. He reaches out, but hesitates before finally resting a hand on one of Matsui’s]
It’s okay. We understand. Do you want to pray…?
no subject
Matsui doesn't flinch or draw back from the touch, at least. The offer, too, is something he appreciates - but he shakes his head after a second.]
I don't... know that prayer will help.
[What he wants to do is draw blood, to slash and spill and paint the walls and floor and himself in that beautiful, terrible red. He has to try being NORMAL THOUGH, or at least try holding it together enough for Buzen, who's also only barely holding it together.]
no subject
He takes Matsui’s hand in both of his own.]
Close your eyes, and let’s pray.
no subject
Matsui just looks at both of their prayer hands, expression grim. Still, eventually, he closes his eyes.]
Alright. We can pray in silence, if you wish.
[He won't make D lead a prayer circle again.]
no subject
Heavenly Father, watch over us here on this side. Bless us with the perseverance to continue forward against all odds no matter what will happen as we move forward.
Sooth our turbulent blood, and keep Mr. Matsui’s calm and refreshed. Please keep Mr. Buzen’s inside his body where it belongs… and also, of course, repair his spirit so he may raise his sword in Your honor, not with violence, but with prosperity and forgiveness.
We know Your everlasting love will be with us even during the times You are most quiet. You will fill us with that same peace so we understand.
Amen.
no subject
It does help, a little. Maybe not the prayer itself so much as who is saying it and what he is saying and why. But it does help. Matsui is quiet for a few long seconds after the last amen, hands still within D's and eyes still closed.
Then, he takes a deep breath and he opens them again, looking to D's face.]
...Thank you. It means much to me.
[That D would pray for him, and for Buzen, and hope for such goodness for them when they're such flawed things. Created by humans to slay humans.]
My blood feels a little more settled...
no subject
[Hehe. Strangely, the act of praying is rather comforting??? Like chanting a mantra, or counting mala beads.
Matsui’s hands get another gentle squeeze, and then he reaches one of his own out to reassuringly brush Matsui’s cheek.]
If you and Buzen are feeling a little better later, you should join us. We would enjoy having you there.
no subject
The touch is also grounding, and in a way similar to Buzen, he leans into it a little. Not overly-much. Just enough to convey his comfort and appreciation.]
...Mm. [Perhaps there is something to it... Prayer! Wild!] --If Buzen wishes to go, I will accompany him.
[AND BUZEN DOES BECAUSE HE'S A FUCKIN STEPFORD SMILER.]
no subject
Good. Please take care of yourself. I'm going to go make sure Rang isn't acting like a fool.
[Offers Matsui a smile. :)]