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[crucifer]

I guess not. It isn't as if the higher-ups care.

[ In the end, he hopes, but his prayers have never been answered before. ]

I'm not really a fan of bein' stained red, honestly. But if that's the burden I'll have to take, then I'll wade through it as much as I need to.

[ Hopefully, it stays need to. ]

[onlypets]

It doesn't seem as if they do, no.

[A quiet sigh. He lowers his head, and then he turns around to walk down the middle aisle again, unhurried. He stops near Wolfwood.]

You can always ask for forgiveness later. Or so they say.

[crucifer]

[ He looks at him, corner of his mouth twitching in a smile that says he doesn't believe D. ]

Too late for that, count. I'll stay my hand until I need to, 'cause that's the deal I've got going on right now, but once stained red, it's never washing off.

[onlypets]

[Look, he’s just saying. Don’t laugh.]

I hope it stays that way for you then. Unstained.

[crucifer]

You ignored the part where I said too late?

[ Somehow... he can still sass a little. ]

[onlypets]

It's honorable you hold onto the things you experienced while alive and don't consider death a reset. [He doesn't say this like it's a bad thing.] I just meant here. I suppose I should have said I hope your hands don't become more stained.

[DON'T SASS.]

[crucifer]

...It's just 'cause I can't.

My death doesn't mean my problems stop existing. It's a cruelty that I'm still around, aware, and breathing.

Means I don't get the luxury of letting go.

[onlypets]

I don't know, Mr. Wolfwood. Maybe death is the place where you get the choice to let go. What you see as a cruelty is only a karmic opportunity to be a better person in the next life. Then you are reborn so you may start again. Only those who reach nirvana can be free of the shackles of existing again and again.

[He smiles a little.]

Excuse me, that isn't a Christian ideology.

[crucifer]

I've got an open mind.

[ Though being an open mind and accepting it for yourself are different things. ]

You think a next life would be better? Think the whole "weight of sins" thing is probably gonna drag me down someplace pretty shitty.

[onlypets]

[Same hat.]

I am not the same as everyone, but I would take a thousand different lives to try again than just a single one full of regrets at the end. It's a burden, but I would bear it. I don't want to become like my father; unfortunately, I believe it's my fate to walk in his shoes.

Unless I change.

[crucifer]

...

Do you think you can?

[ Do you think people change, D? ]

[onlypets]

[A wry smile.]

Not in the life I left. Maybe in the next.

[crucifer]

[ Huh. ]

Good luck with that.

[ And honestly, he does kind of mean it. ]

Hope you can escape your Father.

[onlypets]

I did, at least in a way. The detective shot him.

[He gazes out thoughtfully over the cathedral with no real distinct expression. Not happy, not sad.]

But now I am the father to my son. And it is my turn to reject hope.

[crucifer]

[ Wait dial it back he's about to shatter this atmosphere so bad ]




You talking about T-chan or do you seriously have a kid?

[onlypets]

I’m not talking about T-chan.

[He slowly turns his head back to Wolfwood, expression coy and teasing.]

I have a son. My grandfather is caring for him.

[crucifer]

...Didn't expect that of you, honestly.

[ Partially because D is pretty young but also the idea... that D fucks... is it adoption... ]

Why not you? You don't wanna be around him?

[ Because of this whole, like father like son thing? ]

[onlypets]

Why? Is it wrong for me to have a child?

[He shakes his head, face softening.]

That is my grandfather’s duty. He cared for me as well all of my life. It is now my duty to look after the pet shop I inherited.

[crucifer]

Not really, just didn't come off to me as the type to have one. You know. Are you married?

[ Is there a Mrs. D...? That being said, while this family structure is new to him, he can see the pattern and who is he to riff off of someone else's tradition. ]

[onlypets]

[Mrs. D…]

He is young. He was born very recently. [Maybe this assuages some of the worry about him being young. “It doesn’t.”] I’m not married, no.

[crucifer]

Oh, alright.

[ He's not interested in caring about wedlock or whatever so. ]

...Hope he grows up well.

[ He really does mean that. Kids deserve every chance. ]

[onlypets]

[Wolfwood berates him for having a child out of wedlock as is the Catholic way.]

Grandfather knows what to do, so I'm sure he will be alright. [A teasing, knowing smile.] You really do like kids, don't you, Mr. Wolfwood?

[crucifer]

[ Wolfwood 'banged Millie in the '98 version without marriage' Lastname doesn't get to talk even if this is not his slutty slutty '98 self. ]

I don't know if I'd say I like 'em. [ It's kind of a lie but it's semantics. He's fond of kids regardless. ] I just don't think they've got anything to be blamed for. Not for the kind of responsibilities adults have got.

[onlypets]

[Play the slut version, Lowe. Lowe?]

I see. [Said in the way where he knows Wolfwood is full of shit, but he's being POLITE and not calling him out on it.] I run a pet shop, and I see many children, as you can imagine.

So I cannot say I agree with some of that. Even children have terribly selfish desires.

[crucifer]

[ Anna?

Also stop pinches D's eyes closed. ]

I'm not saying there ain't any demonic children out there, but that's not what I mean. Even then, in most cases, they're just what their parents, or lack of parents make 'em.

Someone just needs to set them on the right path. That's all.