...Some of it sounds familiar. The story, the desire for vengeance, the inability to understand reflected so clearly on the faces of the humans. The shock on D's face as he watches his father die. The cycle, neverending.
And maybe other parts feel familiar too. Hating, and yet hoping at the same time. D taking that human by the arm even though he'd just killed his father, then leaping from the building to what should be certain death --]
-- What happened?
[if he sounds annoyed then he IS!!! WHY DID THE MEMORY CUT OFF RIGHT THERE WHAT HAPPENED TO HIS D]
D holds the side of his face for a moment, brows bunched. His lips thin, having been reminded of what is still fresh in his mind. He lowers his hand, head shaking.]
I don't know. [Sorry to Rang and to Yaywon.] It's the last thing I remember.
not the brother lore........ the way if it was any other reason... rang looks away because he can't say the words 'maybe he'd be better off without him' considering his own Issues,]
...You care about them. That's what makes what he did to you even worse.
[d's dad was gonna kill humans everywhere well so what nothing bad happened the building just exploded]
[That's why Rang is so funny. I understand him on a personal level which doesn't say good things about me.
THROWS OUT THE BROTHER LORE RIGHT IN RANG'S FACE. Ha ha! This really makes them both fucking stupid. He does not say anything to the first part. Rang isn't wrong, and he doesn't have to acknowledge it for them both to know.]
It is Father's fate to one day die no matter if it was then, or now, or later. The same is true for me more than likely. As Grandfather said, that is the destiny of our species. We die, and we are reborn again.
I don't know if the detective shares such a fate, so... If he survived my Father's gauntlet, I thought he should have one last chance from me to live a little bit longer.
...I hope he understands how precious that chance you gave him is.
[does he sound bitter.......... does he think there is something terribly unfair about how humans can always live on, but those hurt by humans have to be trapped in a constant cycle of pain and vengeance and grief? there are similarities here, with d and him, but also with d and the swords.
in the end, no amount of suffering will ever make things right -- for humans or all of them.]
D IS REALLY OUT HERE AS AN IMMENSE RANG STAN. He reaches up to rest his hand against the side of Rang's face reassuringly, but doesn't insult Rang by petting or stroking it. His smile is bittersweet; he understands what Rang is feeling.]
I'm sure, in time, he will. He cares about Chris even he has very stupid ways of showing it sometimes. [He lowers his hand.] I had a reminder for him anyway.
A picture Chris drew of all of us. A little parting trick in a big suitcase since he always thought I was involved in some kind of criminal activity.
[Maybe Rang would have reacted poorly if D tried to pet him, maybe he would have stood there and allowed it, as always. But D just touches his face, and Rang stays still for that too, gaze pinned on him.]
...What's so criminal about a pet shop... [he knows that d was out there letting his animals murder it's fine!!! animals can't be judged by the same laws anyway!!! he's just grumbling to grumble.
he's jealous of those humans. and he's upset over d's fate. but he doesn't know what to say or show that in any way other than being grumpy or through violence,
and then as if on cue a memory plays, (720p bc the quality is so bad IM SORRY ANNA]]
He thought it was a cover for all my criminal activities.
[RANG, YOUR QUID PRO QUO MARRIAGE!!!!
The memory startles him. Not the hair really actually being cute and red on the ends... Anyhow, the memory worries the shit out of him at first, and then worries him for an entirely different reason after that.
!!!]
Rang...
[Already trying to get Rang's hands to LOOK at them!!]
[HIS STUPID RED HAIR THAT RANG PURPOSEFULLY DYES SO HE DOESN'T HAVE TO BE LIKE HIS BROTHER...
rang will let D fuss over his hands, though they look pristine,]
The gods made the gumiho more powerful than any other creature. But in order to control them, they made it so that they'd always have to repay whatever favors they incur.
[he's smiling, though the smile doesn't reach his eyes any]
That human's had me for centuries. No matter what I do for him, it'll never balance what he thinks saving my life is worth.
[He is still holding each of Rang's hands in his own when he glances up, slightly mortified. Don't just SAY THAT and then smile exactly like HE DOES.
Hearing this makes him so mad! How dare a human think he can trap such a wonderful creature selfishly!! He drops Rang's hands and instead wraps his arms around Rang's neck to hug him.]
I don't want this for you at all. I'm sorry humans are so cruel for their own desires.
how strange. d's always validated him for the strangest reason of all -- for what he is. but no one else has ever cared for him for that reason. he's only ever been a monster or a curse or something to be used.
he wonders if his brother would have said something like this -- if he knew, but no. he knows what his brother would say. he'd just tell him to deal with it himself.
rang reaches up to tentatively pat D on the head. funny, that d has always been the one touching him,]
...It's not like I don't get anything out of our arrangement. [that's what he tells himself, at least] Our goals are aligned for now, so it's fine.
[He thinks if he hugs Rang enough, if he squeezes Rang, he can squeeze the awful deal right on out.] Don't say that. [He draws away only so he can look Rang in the face, his hands settling on Rang's arms.
He's still mortified! But in a frustrated, annoyed way.]
It's not fine... Why couldn't he just--save you without wanting something in return? How like a human... [Inwardly gritting his teeth!!!] You shouldn't be here, Rang... You shouldn't be on this side either, just to be erased with the rest of us.
the way rang is so stupidly fond. he hates that he is fond, a part of him wishes that he and d really died for real when they were erased, and not had to live on this other side and grow more attached to each other,]
I know. You want me to live.
[...]
But compared to the rest here -- compared to you... [...] I'm not as attached to the idea.
[Nooooo, his heart. He knew he was going to hear these words, and he did NOT want to hear them at all!!
His expression softens sadly. He understands why, and he understands being trapped in a shitty deal is only part of it.
He reaches up and puts his hand on Rang’s cheek again, brushing it with his thumb.]
If somehow… in some bizarre turn of events, we are freed instead of erased for good, my shop is always open to you, Rang. I’m sure we could find a suitable trade for what your life is worth. [There is a sharp edge here for only a moment.] I’ll help you. I don’t want anything in return.
Rang looks at D for a long moment, his usual words coming up blank. He can't say 'if I live, then more humans will die' because he knows D won't care. He can't say 'if I live, then I'll just do more terrible things' because D has never judged him for those actions.
Maybe he should tell him what he'll really do then, and see what D makes of that.]
If I go back, then I'm going to kill the person my brother loves most.
[it's never really been a secret, truly. just something no one else has asked. but he thinks many have cottoned on to it already, his hatred for his brother.
he's never shown how much of it is really love, a twisted, desperate version of it.]
That way, he'll kill me when I do, and then choose to die with me.
[Rang, you self-destructive bastard. PLEASE. You really shred his nerves to pieces.
The look he offers Rang is genuinely sympathetic, a little hesitant in the way he clearly wants to say something, but he doesn't know if he should, if it'd make things worse. He lowers his hand.]
Rang... I have seen many instances of... humanity. And I know you and your brother are not entirely human, but... I'm afraid to tell you... to be the one who has to tell you, to convince you... your brother wouldn't die with you, I don't believe. That isn't... how it would work.
You know this, don't you? It hurts you.
[He can TELL.]
Why...? Why do you hate your brother so much that you'd die for it?
[His eyes flash at the mention, brows furrowing like he wants to stop listening. This is an illusion he's created himself, after all. It's the one Imoogi and his followers have fed into, so that Rang can stay by their side.
It's the only hope Rang has had for centuries.]
He abandoned me. ['why ally with your brother's most hated enemy?'] He left me on that mountain. He wasn't there when the humans burned it down and killed everything -- and then he tried to kill me when I went after them.
...He never told me why. He never apologized. [the brothers for having the literal worst communication issues ever,] He just lived for all those centuries without bothering to find me. And when I showed up again... he still didn't care. He only cares about me when I threaten that woman's life.
[he sounds so much like a child, because that is who he is in the end]
[Sweet Rang. This really does make Rang sound like just a young child, like a baby, not even in a negative way. His heart has been hurt like a child's would.
This is just big Superhell Akira and Ryo miscommunication energy, wow.]
Rang...
[He touches one of Rang's arm with a hand, offering it a small squeeze--not of reassurance, but understanding. His smile is weak and tight. It's not like he's going to try to change Rang's mind about any of that sort of bitterness.]
I'm sorry. That it happened to you. I hope you know others care about you as much as any brother would.
[IT REALLY IS AKIRYO SUPERHELL MISCOMMUNICATION AHHHHH
...the words mean more than rang could say, which his normal considering his fcking stupid tsundere ass.
he just doesn't understand affection freely given, he distrusts it actually -- it's why livio had such a hard time with him, and rin too. but with d... he can accept some measure of it, even if he's not sure he deserves it,]
I don't know about others... That sounds pretty optimistic of you?
[OTHERS???? WHY IS THAT PLURAL D???? but he's no longer looking like a hurt child, smiling instead]
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A little oink oink can race by them. Rang can have this memory as a tweat.]
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...Some of it sounds familiar. The story, the desire for vengeance, the inability to understand reflected so clearly on the faces of the humans. The shock on D's face as he watches his father die. The cycle, neverending.
And maybe other parts feel familiar too. Hating, and yet hoping at the same time. D taking that human by the arm even though he'd just killed his father, then leaping from the building to what should be certain death --]
-- What happened?
[if he sounds annoyed then he IS!!! WHY DID THE MEMORY CUT OFF RIGHT THERE WHAT HAPPENED TO HIS D]
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D holds the side of his face for a moment, brows bunched. His lips thin, having been reminded of what is still fresh in his mind. He lowers his hand, head shaking.]
I don't know. [Sorry to Rang and to Yaywon.] It's the last thing I remember.
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rang still looks so mad as if it is d's fault that he doesn't know what happened after JUMPING OFF]
...Were you trying to save him?
[thonk.png was it saving?]
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A wry, somewhat bittersweet smile ghosts across his face at Rang before disappearing. He glances away.]
...He had a little brother to return to who would miss him dearly.
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not the brother lore........ the way if it was any other reason... rang looks away because he can't say the words 'maybe he'd be better off without him' considering his own Issues,]
...You care about them. That's what makes what he did to you even worse.
[d's dad was gonna kill humans everywhere well so what nothing bad happened the building just exploded]
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THROWS OUT THE BROTHER LORE RIGHT IN RANG'S FACE. Ha ha! This really makes them both fucking stupid. He does not say anything to the first part. Rang isn't wrong, and he doesn't have to acknowledge it for them both to know.]
It is Father's fate to one day die no matter if it was then, or now, or later. The same is true for me more than likely. As Grandfather said, that is the destiny of our species. We die, and we are reborn again.
I don't know if the detective shares such a fate, so... If he survived my Father's gauntlet, I thought he should have one last chance from me to live a little bit longer.
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...I hope he understands how precious that chance you gave him is.
[does he sound bitter.......... does he think there is something terribly unfair about how humans can always live on, but those hurt by humans have to be trapped in a constant cycle of pain and vengeance and grief? there are similarities here, with d and him, but also with d and the swords.
in the end, no amount of suffering will ever make things right -- for humans or all of them.]
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D IS REALLY OUT HERE AS AN IMMENSE RANG STAN. He reaches up to rest his hand against the side of Rang's face reassuringly, but doesn't insult Rang by petting or stroking it. His smile is bittersweet; he understands what Rang is feeling.]
I'm sure, in time, he will. He cares about Chris even he has very stupid ways of showing it sometimes. [He lowers his hand.] I had a reminder for him anyway.
A picture Chris drew of all of us. A little parting trick in a big suitcase since he always thought I was involved in some kind of criminal activity.
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...What's so criminal about a pet shop... [he knows that d was out there letting his animals murder it's fine!!! animals can't be judged by the same laws anyway!!! he's just grumbling to grumble.
he's jealous of those humans. and he's upset over d's fate. but he doesn't know what to say or show that in any way other than being grumpy or through violence,
and then as if on cue a memory plays, (720p bc the quality is so bad IM SORRY ANNA]]
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[RANG, YOUR QUID PRO QUO MARRIAGE!!!!
The memory startles him. Not the hair really actually being cute and red on the ends... Anyhow, the memory worries the shit out of him at first, and then worries him for an entirely different reason after that.
!!!]
Rang...
[Already trying to get Rang's hands to LOOK at them!!]
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rang will let D fuss over his hands, though they look pristine,]
The gods made the gumiho more powerful than any other creature. But in order to control them, they made it so that they'd always have to repay whatever favors they incur.
[he's smiling, though the smile doesn't reach his eyes any]
That human's had me for centuries. No matter what I do for him, it'll never balance what he thinks saving my life is worth.
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Hearing this makes him so mad! How dare a human think he can trap such a wonderful creature selfishly!! He drops Rang's hands and instead wraps his arms around Rang's neck to hug him.]
I don't want this for you at all. I'm sorry humans are so cruel for their own desires.
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how strange. d's always validated him for the strangest reason of all -- for what he is. but no one else has ever cared for him for that reason. he's only ever been a monster or a curse or something to be used.
he wonders if his brother would have said something like this -- if he knew, but no. he knows what his brother would say. he'd just tell him to deal with it himself.
rang reaches up to tentatively pat D on the head. funny, that d has always been the one touching him,]
...It's not like I don't get anything out of our arrangement. [that's what he tells himself, at least] Our goals are aligned for now, so it's fine.
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He's still mortified! But in a frustrated, annoyed way.]
It's not fine... Why couldn't he just--save you without wanting something in return? How like a human... [Inwardly gritting his teeth!!!] You shouldn't be here, Rang... You shouldn't be on this side either, just to be erased with the rest of us.
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the way rang is so stupidly fond. he hates that he is fond, a part of him wishes that he and d really died for real when they were erased, and not had to live on this other side and grow more attached to each other,]
I know. You want me to live.
[...]
But compared to the rest here -- compared to you... [...] I'm not as attached to the idea.
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His expression softens sadly. He understands why, and he understands being trapped in a shitty deal is only part of it.
He reaches up and puts his hand on Rang’s cheek again, brushing it with his thumb.]
If somehow… in some bizarre turn of events, we are freed instead of erased for good, my shop is always open to you, Rang. I’m sure we could find a suitable trade for what your life is worth. [There is a sharp edge here for only a moment.] I’ll help you. I don’t want anything in return.
Except for you to live, of course.
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Rang looks at D for a long moment, his usual words coming up blank. He can't say 'if I live, then more humans will die' because he knows D won't care. He can't say 'if I live, then I'll just do more terrible things' because D has never judged him for those actions.
Maybe he should tell him what he'll really do then, and see what D makes of that.]
If I go back, then I'm going to kill the person my brother loves most.
[it's never really been a secret, truly. just something no one else has asked. but he thinks many have cottoned on to it already, his hatred for his brother.
he's never shown how much of it is really love, a twisted, desperate version of it.]
That way, he'll kill me when I do, and then choose to die with me.
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The look he offers Rang is genuinely sympathetic, a little hesitant in the way he clearly wants to say something, but he doesn't know if he should, if it'd make things worse. He lowers his hand.]
Rang... I have seen many instances of... humanity. And I know you and your brother are not entirely human, but... I'm afraid to tell you... to be the one who has to tell you, to convince you... your brother wouldn't die with you, I don't believe. That isn't... how it would work.
You know this, don't you? It hurts you.
[He can TELL.]
Why...? Why do you hate your brother so much that you'd die for it?
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It's the only hope Rang has had for centuries.]
He abandoned me. ['why ally with your brother's most hated enemy?'] He left me on that mountain. He wasn't there when the humans burned it down and killed everything -- and then he tried to kill me when I went after them.
...He never told me why. He never apologized. [the brothers for having the literal worst communication issues ever,] He just lived for all those centuries without bothering to find me. And when I showed up again... he still didn't care. He only cares about me when I threaten that woman's life.
[he sounds so much like a child, because that is who he is in the end]
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This is just big Superhell Akira and Ryo miscommunication energy, wow.]
Rang...
[He touches one of Rang's arm with a hand, offering it a small squeeze--not of reassurance, but understanding. His smile is weak and tight. It's not like he's going to try to change Rang's mind about any of that sort of bitterness.]
I'm sorry. That it happened to you. I hope you know others care about you as much as any brother would.
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...the words mean more than rang could say, which his normal considering his fcking stupid tsundere ass.
he just doesn't understand affection freely given, he distrusts it actually -- it's why livio had such a hard time with him, and rin too. but with d... he can accept some measure of it, even if he's not sure he deserves it,]
I don't know about others... That sounds pretty optimistic of you?
[OTHERS???? WHY IS THAT PLURAL D???? but he's no longer looking like a hurt child, smiling instead]