it's a full body flinch, almost violent as he jerks backwards half a step, hand clutching tight in the fabric of his shirt. coming up close, d can see that fei du is shaking like a leaf, trembling so hard it looks like his teeth are rattling in his mouth.
I don't want to die.
The thought comes across forceful, for the first time - cutting through the static, faster than the words could come out of his mouth. he doesn't feel like his tongue works, like anything works. it feels like the entirety of his world is crumbling down.
it feels like anger. it feels like horror, and anger, this violent, awful swirl of all the bad things fei du could be in his stomach so painful he wants to throw up. ]
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it's a full body flinch, almost violent as he jerks backwards half a step, hand clutching tight in the fabric of his shirt. coming up close, d can see that fei du is shaking like a leaf, trembling so hard it looks like his teeth are rattling in his mouth.
I don't want to die.
The thought comes across forceful, for the first time - cutting through the static, faster than the words could come out of his mouth. he doesn't feel like his tongue works, like anything works. it feels like the entirety of his world is crumbling down.
it feels like anger. it feels like horror, and anger, this violent, awful swirl of all the bad things fei du could be in his stomach so painful he wants to throw up. ]